Saturday, October 4, 2008

Really?

Ok, so you really can't understand this post unless you read this first. It's another RADical mom, one of whom I've sort of attached myself to in my effort to find some support, non-aloneness, and ideas for helping our RADish heal. I read that particular post a few short days ago, not having any similar experience. Then, BANG, and the last few days my RADling has been ridiculously giggly. She has also taken some significant steps backwards, leaving me frustrated again. And the giggling drives me INSANE!!! It sounds insane when she does it. That mom describes it well. It's exactly what my baby's laugh is like. "maniacal fit of the strangest laughter". I'm left wondering if the cause is the same as her Em.

And the title is what I'm left with. Really? I mean even after everything I've read, and everything I've first hand seen that gives the crazy stuff I've read validity, I'm still just having a hard time swallowing this one. I almost can't believe that this crazy giggling thing Charity has suddenly started could really be a reaction to feeling love. A feeling she's never felt before. And so her body doesn't know how to react, and the maniacal giggling is what comes out. I want to believe it. That would mean maybe we are on our way to some healing. And it might even explain the steps backwards in behavior. For RADlings, feeling something like affection or love brings with it great fear. It might as well be killing them, and they have to push back. And I do believe this mom is likely right on target with her little one. But is that what this is with my Charity? Really? Because I'm telling you everything in me wants to tell her to STOP!!!! You're acting CRAZY! Of course I don't say that, but sheesh, I'm thinking it!

I usually don't beg for comments, but if you are reading because you have a RADish, too, please, speak up! I'm dying to hear of others' experiences.

8 comments:

Maury said...

I HOPE that is why she is so giggly! I can totally understand how that could drive you crazy if she is doing it just for the heck of it...

I am anxious to see how it goes through time. I HOPE this is a big step for her. Maybe you should just go around with an ipod on...that is what I have been tempted to do.

chickadee@afamiliarpath said...

though i know nothing about this your reasoning, and the post you linked to, sounds like that might be it. how amazing if it is!

Mandy said...

Another clueless reader! I've said it before, and will say it again, lol I have absolutely zero ability to dish out advice to you! I can, however, offer prayer and support and say that I am also heavily praying that her giggling is for such a great reason. As annoying as it must be (I can only imagine!) if you could have a glimmer of hope in that chaotic laughter, I'm sure it would make it easier to handle.

Alyssa's Mom said...

I am going to go out on a limb here and say yes, she is giggly because she is happy!

My Alyssa does the same thing and it drives me CRAZY!!! Our therapist has suggested saying, I know you are happy, but could I please see the REAL Alyssa. It seems to help control the crazies somewhat.

We had some of that this weekend, followed by very controlling behavior this morning and a disrespectful, sassy mouth.

Two steps forward, one step back!

Gerri

dean said...

we had a little of that at the Home with our RAD kid, but she didn't stay with us long enough for us to ever find out what it was all about.

seems i've missed a number of your posts... bloglines isn't alerting me to every new post on many of the blogs i follow. sorry for not checking in lately!

Lisa said...

A RAD mom here. Just found your sight thanks to Gerri. I think you're absolutely on target. J does this too but it's usually when she's REALLY worried about something. Also, she can get the hiccups (They sound real - I am NOT kidding) at will. As soon as I tell her that she can quit hiccupping because she doesn't need to be worried she stops immediately!

Anonymous said...

Sorry, can't help you. I have human children, not radishes.
Have you tried the farmers' market? They may know something about raising radishes and other vegetables.

Unspeakable Joy said...

(dork comment) wish i had human children! but they're getting there! no idea if it's giggly love for yours. hope so! it's so weird to really comprehend that they don't feel it like i feel it. be sure you see where my son really felt love too!!
http://radicaladventures.blogspot.com/2008/09/moment-it-clicked-love.html