Friday, November 21, 2008

11 Years Ago

I became a mother. I had been warned of how my little one would not look pretty right off. About how nasty babies are at birth, their faces flat, heads coned, red and just not very pretty. I was a teenager, excited about being "mom" but scared to death as well. Tons of family eagerly awaited her arrival outside my hospital room. I had spent 9 months crawling around on my hands and knees. I lost weight... something my 100 pound frame didn't tolerate very well. I honestly can't remember what weight I got down to, I think it was 90 pounds. I was so young and dumb that I thought I was pregnant, and just supposed to be sick, so I let it go day in and day out without holding a thing down. When I couldn't get myself out of the tub one day, my husband helped me out, literally dressed me and carried me down to the car. Upon arrival at the doctor's office, they promptly sent me over to the hospital and declared I couldn't leave until I was at an acceptable weight. Lovely, huh?

The day she was born all I could think was how amazingly beautiful she was. Those silly people who said newborns were less than pleasing to look at hadn't seen MY baby! She came into the world complaining about the competency of the nursing staff, demanding better service, and certain her parents couldn't be meant for her. After all, we were babies ourselves, how could we possibly give accurate care to a princess such has herself?

Not much has changed. ;) She's still opinionated and not much can be said to persuade her otherwise. She often instructs me on how the younger ones should be cared for, and I'm constantly reminding her that she made it this far without dying, that Dad and I are perfectly capable of caring for them, and might even know what's best! She was an amazing little girl, that I often took credit for. It wasn't until the 3rd or 4th child that I realized she was what she is in spite of me rather than because of me. That I really had very little to do with her incredible ability to discern, to choose her own path no matter what those around her are doing, to stand firm in her convictions, and care so deeply for those who are struggling. She's more grounded than even I give her credit for. She likes what she likes, hates what she doesn't, and there is very little gray. She's a rule follower, and has little tolerance for those who don't respect the rules or each other. She is mostly serious, but when she laughs that true, full, belly laugh, everyone around her does the same. She's witty, and her sense of humor is very different than our other children's. She's smart, oh so beautiful, already has a deep love for her Savior and a desire to share His love with others, and she is AMAZING with little toddlers and babies. Right now, she wants to work in hippotherapy when she grows up. She has ALWAYS loved horses, and children, and I think that would be an incredible opportunity for her to work with both. She has so much exposure to emotionally disturbed children, as well as those with developmental delays, and her care for them is far beyond her age. I'm not always sure that's a good thing, I want to make sure she's a little girl as long as she can be, but her talents and passions are becoming clearer and clearer with each passing year.

Though I certainly miss days of rocking, nursing, and singing to my sweet little angel, I look forward to sharing the rest of my life with her. I love this stage, too! She's not only my little girl, now, but we have "real" conversations, she's becoming less of me, and more of herself. And less of herself, and more of Jesus. Such an incredible life to be a part of! Happy Birthday, Faith.

12 comments:

hsmomma5 said...

Happy Birthday Faith!!!

chickadee@afamiliarpath said...

happy birthday sweet girl! i'm glad we know you.

Jennifer said...

Happy Birthday to Faith! And yes, she is a very beautiful young lady!!

Shelley said...

of course she is beautiful....she is her mother made over, inside and out.

Rae said...

Wow! I became a mama 10 years ago today!! Though my darling baby was born on this day she came to me as a foster baby the following March and she found her true home.

Green Acres said...

Happy Birthday Faith!!! Hope you have a great day!!

glitzen said...

Happy bday Faith. Your mama sure has a sweet way of describing you and your wonderful qualities.
Love this post!!!!!!!!!

Naomi said...

Happy Birthday to Faith! You certainly have a wonderful way of writing, and that post is to treasure!

deepfriedpicklesandicecream.wordpress.com said...

Happy Birthday to her.She is a beauty and I agree with Shelley,she is absolutely you made over!

Dang makes me feel old,I didnt realize "Lovely K" was a shade older than her. :S:S:S:S
LOL.

The Source said...

Faith, I hope your birthday was absolutely fabulous!

Brenda said...

Happy Birthday to your daughter! Makes me miss mine (they are in college and just left today)

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